frustration is rising

 I feel like I am on this plateau.  I am back to having my fear of the numbers on the scale.  Nothing in my body do I feel has changed.  

I love that I am waking up with more energy.  I am ready to face the day.

Today I started a new treadmill program.  it is called sprint 8.  It is about a 20 minute interval program in both pace and amplitude. I picked level 1 today.  At the fastest pace it is 3.7 and you are at the fast for 30 seconds and then 90 seconds at a slower pace 1.5.  I bumped it up in pace between 1.7 and 2.  I was thinking about doing the couch to 5K, but with the cold setting in I am not as likely to get out there and walk/ run.  This program will have to do.

Once we get things moved around in the basement work out area I hope john will help me set up a program.  We have kettle bells, a 10 pound medicine ball, the treadmill, weights, and several DVDs.  I guess I need to get a TV and DVD player down there.  I have the 30 day shred with Jillian.  takes about 20 minutes.

Maybe I could do the 30 day shred every other day with the sprint 8.  The 30 day shred says you are supposed to do it very day.  I should see what the library has too.

I am not going to get off this plateau till I get moving.

I promise I will get on the scale on Friday, but not a day before.

meals....  i don't think I am eating right.  some days it is to much, or too little or bad choices. I start the day great, but it goes downhill from there.  I feel like Mother Hubbard.. I open the fridge and it feels so bare.  I was so sick of left overs, but now we have none.

Breakfast was an orange before my "work out" then eggs one white, 1 whole and 2 bacon.   It is time to switch to turkey bacon.  I prefer the pork, but if I am eating bacon everyday I need to switch.

Lunch???

Dinner chicken breast BBQ grilled corn and grilled zucchini.

I also had my 1 month pictures taken.  I have yet to compare them to see if I can see changes.  at First glance- none.

plateau #1

I believe I have hit my first plateau.   I am hovering around the same weight for 10 +days now.  It is plus or minus a pound or three.   I got out for a walk 3 times this weeks.  A walk must not be enough.   I keep thinking I want to do couch to 5 K but I keep finding reasons to not do it.  I think fear is the biggest reason.  I am not sure what I am actually afraid of-success.  I have tried walking programs, and after a week or so I just stop.  why keep doing this to myself?

This week I realized I do need a food journal.  I had talked about it in an email with my friends who or on the road to this lifestyle change with me.  I was thinking nah.   In those emails we talked about our food plans.  What we were eating at each meal including snacks.   I guess in a way it was my food journal.  I wrote to them every morning.  I mapped out the meal planning.  It was in black and white.  Lesson learned.  I must admit to journal it is the worst part of this lifestyle change.

It is not that I am not moving enough or not using a journal that I had a blah week.   I guess it felt more like a competition with the girls around. we all have a similar amount of weight to drop.  So with them it is more even.  Men lose faster traditionally, and John has a lot less to go than me.  He is a great encourager. Good and Bad!  I am so lucky he is here, my huge fail he sent the sweetest text.  he said "not a fail, just a slip for this meal" It ended as a slip day. I made cookies. I think there is just one left.

I need to figure out how to break the plateau.  A 3 day cinch cleanse?  greens and proteins?  time for some web research.  keep your fingers crossed for me!   I still have a lot to go!

diet fail- I am a bread junky!

yesterday was a huge Diet fail.  I can only blame myself even if I am trying to blame others.  First, I blame my girlfriends. They went on vacation. I know my husband is also a support, but ....

So you ask why the fail???   I was asked by a friend (not one of the 4 on the diet with me) to go to lunch.  I of course said yes. I love time out with friends.  she had a craving for pizza so we went to the hut.  I was actually better than I have been in the past, but still 3 slices and 5 bread sticks will not help me to loose 150 pounds. After a decent dinner I failed yet again and made chocolate chip cookies.  they were from a frozen dough so not too hard to resist.  I had 3 with a nice cup of hot tea.  
I have had 2 today also.  Not to many left in the house to tempt me.  At least I baked up only a dozen.
I really need to get focused.  I can only blame myself..
Today I put on a pair of pants I don't think I have ever worn.  they were in my closet and I am sure I got them from one of my fat friends.  They fit, but I still had to lay on the bed to get them buttoned.
I really wonder how much damage this week has done.
I started out good.  Got 3 nice walks in and ate pretty well. Till Wednesday.  Time to gear up again.  Next week we are going to Olive Garden for dinner.  It is a friends birthday celebration.  Hard to say no.  I am a bread junky!

It is all in the mind set.  I have to get back on track. 18 pounds is a good start, but I am feeling a bit of a plateau.  I need to push on through. I have lost the same 30 pounds again and again and then I give up.  I do not want to give up.
Why did I get this motivation at the end of summer. it is getting cold now and who wants to walk outside.
Still need to get my butt to the gym.

All in good time.
Do you feel my frustration???

it has been a while...

I finished the full 5 days of the Cinch fast forward. it was a success 8.6 pounds lost. i then went to Canada for a party and ate and drank with some limitation as expected do you the cleanse i put 3 pounds back on.  I think it was a lot of water loss.  I just finished a week of greens and proteins and I am down another 3 pounds.  I am not doing so hot with getting exercise in my schedule.  I really need to work on it.  I know to loose weight it is a diet and exercise change.  I am working on it.  Work has ramped back up and I need to just put exercise in my schedule and then I hope to have better luck with it.  I did call my gym to get trained on the 30 minute circuit, but the trainer was being trained and it was not an option last week
.  Now I need to get my motivation back up.


My friends who are taking this journey with me have gone on vacation for a week.  I can do this without them.  Thankfully I have my hubby to help and support me.

I am afraid that if I do not limit myself to a week of greens and proteins or stuff like that then I will go way off track.  I know no carbs is not the way to go. Ellen said she heard about a 17 day diet.  Maybe we will check it out.
 I do still think about the Cinch 5 piece puzzle when I am making my lunch.

I just wish I could see or feel the weight loss.  next pictures will be September 21.

Day 5 is here!!!

  I am sick of raspberries.   Today was the first day I felt this.  I can  not be anymore creative with them. I have just 3 more cups to go. My scramble this morning was just so so.  I think I am going bonkers.  Thankfully I love the almonds!!!!  I must admit I am so afraid to get on the scale tomorrow.  I have followed this to a T, except missing meal 4 on Wednesday, but I never got the feeling of hunger.   That is what makes me worried.  I have been peeing like crazy too. Can I flush the fat out in my pee?   If this is a cleanse, cleaning the digestive tract, then I have not really cleansed too much.  Sorry for the bathroom talk at 930 in the morning.  I keep thinking and I reread a part of the book is all of the foods have essential things my body needs.  So I am giving my body that only and nothing is really being consumed that is waste.  ( enough bathroom talk)

I do not think I will eat raspberries for a very long time.  I was never a huge fan anyhow. 

I have actually enjoyed the scramble till today.

John has been working crazy hours and has been tempted with food all week.  He has stuck with this program.  I am nervous and excited for us.   One would think a 5-8 pound loss would change how our clothes fit.  I have not seen that for me.  I am really sucking at the exercise thing.  I need some help with that.   I know John and I talked about going for a walk everyday together, but it only happened a few days about 2 weeks ago.   

 

As of now I am nervous for the scale tomorrow.  I want great results or I will feel this was all for nothing.  It was expensive too.  Raspberries are not cheap and I purchased enough for the 2 of us.  I want to see a high number 8-10 pounds.  What if it is only 5.  Will I be happy with 5.  Sure I think I will, but who knows.

Only 3 meals to go....

Cinch! day 3

I am tired of the spinach salad.   I love the breakfast. I never liked cooked spinach, but with so cracked pepper it is very good.   Still not feeling the hunger they said I should feel.
I actually missed meal 4 on day 3.  We went out and when we got home it had been 7 hours since I last ate.  I did not feel hungry and I NEEDED to go to bed.   So I went.
John is starting to get grouchy.  He is a doll to do this with me, but he is always saying he is not getting enough.  He is feeling hungry. His new "job" also keeps tempting at lunch with the food they bring in.  He is such a doll.  He wants to drop 40 pounds too, so this my get a jump start for him.

I think the girls are starting to peeter out too.  there are fewer comments on the email about how things are going.

DAY 3 DONE!!!!  two more to go.  Feeling like I can make it, just hope the scale awards me too.

Cinch! day 2

I am wrapping up day 2 with my final meal of the day.  The smoothie.  Yesterday I made it as suggested with the almond butter mixed in- BIG MISTAKE!   Today I picked up frozen berries to have with my yogurt.  Much better.  I will eat the almond butter separate. So far this has not been so bad.  I have enjoyed the meals (for the most part.)
Today for dinner I mixed the berries with white balsamic- not bad, not great.
I am having issues because even at 5 hours I am not feeling hungry.  I think this is a problem.  The point of the cleanse is to reset the self and feel when you are hungry.  Not happening here.  I really hope I can lose over this 5 days.  The book says 8 pounds.  Fingers crossed!!!
I am feeling good, but I would not say I have more energy than normal.  So far I am just eating the same 4 meals for 5 days.
Friday I will weigh and photograph.   I have talked with some folks on the Cinch facebook page and the results are mixed.  people are losing inches not pounds. Maybe this will not be for me.  Am I in it for the full 30 day program?  I guess we shall see.